On July 11, 2018, my father passed away after battling cancer multiple times and the aftermath of the treatments for a decade. Even with everything that was going on with him, his passing was still unexpected, leaving me and my family behind in great disbelief, pain, and sadness. My father was always a great supporter and inspiration when it came to my work as a computer scientist, but especially in later life, he increasingly acknowledged how much he loved my music, too. I therefore simply had to honor his memory with at least one song.
Today, July 11, 2019, exactly one year after his passing, I'm releasing this song, "Blank Page". I wrote the lyrics a few weeks after his passing, describing how unbelievable it is that there are now only blank pages left in the story of his life and how dearly I miss him.
I was extremely fortunate to have struck up a great new friendship with Heather Barber, an incredibly talented singer from Australia, who I could meet up with later in 2018 when I was visiting Australia and record this song together. She understood exactly what it is that I was looking for in a vocal performance, understanding pain and loss herself very well, ensuring that this song became exactly the emotional power ballad that I had hoped it would be.
And so, this is "Blank Page"... My way of saying "I miss you, dad, every day"...
lyrics
I am staring at a blank page
In the book of you and I
I can’t believe there are no more words
To the story of your life
They say I should be healing
But I don’t know where to start
I realize that I’ll never find
The love we used to have
I know I must be strong
But without you by my side, how do I go on?
I need love
I need you
Just a little light to guide me
And to tell me what to do
I know I must be strong
But without you by my side, how do I go on?
All this pain and suffering
Why must I go through it all?
I need you here with me
Want you to catch me when I fall
I’ll always remember
All the good times that we shared
The times you held me in your arms
And made me whole again
I want you to be proud of me
So I'll be strong until when
I too will have to close my eyes
And we will meet again
I know I must be strong
But without you by my side, how do I go on?
I know I must be strong
But without you by my side, how do I go on?
Tell me, how do I go on?
Copyright Peter Bosman 2019
credits
from Infinite Singles,
released June 29, 2019
Vocals by Heather Barber
Vocal Melody by Maaike Adegeest
Lyrics by Peter Bosman and Maaike Adegeest
Keyboards and Synthesizers by Peter Bosman
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